The Mind of a Crazy-Man

Why does everyone take the tests that everyone else is taking?

2007-03-09T02:33:33Z

eXtreme Purity Test Overall, your experience at life is 18%, or alternatively, 82% pure. [\|\|\|\|................]

Appearance (15%)	[\|\|\|\|................]
Foul Language (73%)	[\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|......]
Illegality/Theft (0%)	[....................]
Love/Dating (9%)	[\|\|..................]
Love/Homosexuality (7%)	[\|\|..................]
Love/Kissing (0%)	[....................]
Sex (0%)	[....................]
Sex/Sluttiness (11%)	[\|\|..................]
Sexuality (54%)	[\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|..........]
Substances/Alcohol (0%)	[....................]
Substances/Drugs (0%)	[....................]
Substances/Smoking (0%)	[....................]
Travel (31%)	[\|\|\|\|\|\|..............]
Take the test! brought to you by thatsurveysite

Hmmm, interesting...

Woot, quizzes.

2007-02-12T03:43:43Z

I am Geek, and I will roll this die!

You are the rare, the overlooked, yet incredibly useful dodecahedron: the d12. You are a creative, romantic soul. You often act without thinking, but make up for your lack of plans with plenty of heart. You easily solve problems that stump others, but your answers tend to put you into even deeper trouble. You write long, detailed backgrounds for all your characters, and are most likely to dress up as one or get involved in cos-play. You can be silly at times and are easily distracted by your own day dreams, but are at the end of the day you're someone who can be depended on.

Take the quiz at dicepool.com

Ya'll better take it. It's a hoot.

Holy crap, this is awesome!

2007-01-19T22:54:16Z

Okay, so I'm looking through the latest issue of Discover Magazine, and what do I find in the always-entertaining Data section? The latest birth control AND HIV-blocker - should I say the ONLY - system!

Get this: a liquid polymer then, when warmed by body heat...such as the warmth of a women's, well, you know, solidifies into a tough barrier. On contact with semen, the polymer liquifies, releasing a "HIV-killing microbicide," killing HIV with enough solidified polymer remaing to keep semen from impregnating said female. A marvel of technology, not to mention a solution to the "manlyness" issues in Africa's attempts to stem the epidemic.

Cool, huh?

Ahhh, now this is art...

2007-01-12T04:23:12Z

Okay, I felt like having some fun...so Imade this treat.

You know you love it.

THAT'S funny

2007-01-11T22:02:28Z

After peruseing Pagan Forum, I found this little piece of gold:

1. Being gay is not natural. And as you know Americans have always rejected unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning.

2. Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.

3. Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because, as you know, a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.

4. Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.

5. Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed. The sanctity of Britany Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.

6. Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.

7. Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.

8. Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.

9. Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.

10. Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.

Poignant as hell, IMHO.

It's D&D!

2007-01-06T02:12:16Z

I have crafted a wonder indeed, a veritable masterwork of ingenuity and mathematics - A massive combat system for D&D! Rather than spend four hours resolving twenty seconds of in-game battle time (I have done this - it isn't fun), you can now make massive troop movements, with minimal dice rolling (as far as attacks are concerned!)!

Anyway, this post is mainly directed at Der Frownmacher, because I do not have the evil dictator's email and I need to run this by him. HINT HINT.

Anyone else interested is free to ask for a draft copy, too, though It won't make any sense unless you have played D&D.

Uhhh...seduction test, wee!

2006-12-06T20:07:03Z

Hey, cool!

Okay, that's just creepy

2006-11-02T20:34:02Z

So, me and Ben were sitting around when we randomly decided to start messing around with the Online Congressional Record.

Being the devious youths that we are, we thought it would be funny to try searching the phrase "UFO."

Much to our surprise, rather than a message saying "0 results" or some such disclaimer, the search engine automatically diverts you to an article from the record regarding Social Security.

Try it yourself:

Congressional Record Search

Interestingly enough, putting "U.F.O." into the search results in a "0 results" message.

Maybe there is a conspiracy after all...

Interesting...

2006-11-02T19:36:11Z

Okay...from ben's LJ

The Straight
Stand up and be heard! You're 40% gay!

You're straight! You can choose whether or not you should be proud of that. You have just enough gay in you to not look like a liar, but too little to be really gay. You're suprised, aren't you?

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 77% on homopoints

Link: The Am I Gay? Test written by alone2gether on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

Being Emo????

2006-09-29T00:38:52Z

So, after watching "How to be Emo" on you tube, and now understanding a little more about what Emo may actually constitute (though a mock-umentary, the film actually hits sort of close to home), I find it intriguing, hell, down right fascinating.

Those who pay attention to pop culture (in an objective sense) will surely know what I am talking about. We, Americans as a whole, are approaching a tipping-point in gender relations. Yes, while bigotry and prejudice still abound concerning male and female (let us not even enter the fray of transsexuals and hermaphrodites), the "flip" is coming. The backlash of 1970s and '80s feminism is here, as numerous publications observe, and as women are becoming more empowered, particularly in our generation (look at your typical honors science class - girls outnumber boys by nearly a factor of two), men are increasingly being asked the question "what is masculinity?" by their own subconscious. Indeed, as the lines between gender roles fade, what does it mean to be a guy? The male population is feeling threatened as its "territory" recedes and the stereotype of "machoness" shrinks in importance.

And what cultural phenomenon erupts as men question their sexual identities? Emo, a subculture in which guys can make-out, and do, with other guys, and not necessarily be gay (if the video is making a valid observation. In any case, it is in opposition to a typical male stereotype.

We are faced with an interesting reaction here: rather than tack-on the traditionally "female" stereotype of sensitivity as women tack on dominance, these guys are embracing the extreme form of it, shedding the old masculine stereotype altogether.

The question, of course, is, is this healthy? Not the, technically homosexual acts; who the hell cares, I mean really. No, what I ask is, is it healthy for guys to completely give up all parts of a traditional role, rather than incorporate and assimilate new parts, augmenting the original so men and women meet in the middle?

That is the cultural question the fads of the next decade or so, i guarantee you, will try to answer, but most likely fail. Particularly American trends and fads have a tendency to be on the extremes of the spectrum; we will end up with ultra-masculine or ultra-feminine trends, which solves no ones problems by any stretch. The cultural trends of the future will leave a generation confused about their identities, and then who knows what hell will break loose then.

Prepare to uphold the free flow of music!

2006-09-13T21:24:20Z

In the battle to protect the free flow of information, another nail has been driven into the coffin of the Internet.
LZ the Great arrives, foretelling injustice.

In the battle to protect the free flow of information, another nail has been driven into the coffin of the Internet.

I was right here, at home, and decided to get out my guitar, not that I am good at it, and wanted to look at some tabs (LAME, I know, but I am still learning to read staff...).

What do I find? The myriad of Tab sites are being threatened with legal actions because they infringe on copyrights by publishing tablature on the internet!

WHO is leading this attack on the proliferation of the language of music? The National Music Publishers' Association. That will take you to their "manifesto" if you will. I quote:

"...The goal of this paper, prepared by the National Music Publishers' Association's Internet Anti-Piracy Task Force, is to illustrate how copyright protection in the computer-driven Age of Information is even more so the engine of free expression than it was in the days of the Colonial printing press, and why it is especially important that the Internet serve as a nurturer --and not as a destroyer-- of the incentive to create that drives the marketplace of ideas...

The Rationalization of Theft

Several popular music websites consist largely of a network of users who --without authorization-- make and distribute to one another derivative works (i.e. arrangements) and full length copies of other people's copyrighted musical compositions. These unauthorized copies take the form of both sheet music (a category that may also include lyrics and tablature in addition to traditional notation) and audio renditions. Their distribution is in clear violation of the exclusive rights granted to creators and copyright owners under the U.S. Copyright Act and other national laws to make, arrange and distribute works."

I posted here because I figured LORDI would be sufficiently AWESOME to, at least, agree that this is utter...well, you know. Wish I knew how far the NMPA will go with this...they seem gravely serious. It certainly makes me angry.

FIGHT FOR MUSIC.

The Glorious Return!

2006-06-17T00:13:46Z

Well, having choosen summer projects I have realized that the best thing to do my Forensics class crime scene project with is...

gelatin.

Yes, gelatin, the new-age special effects medium. Just mix equal parts sorbitol, glycerine, and about 1/3 of one part gelatin plus a marginal amount of water, heat, and voila! A translucent (foam latex has nothing on this stuff in that area), tough, and flexible SFX material. I plan to do some trials soon, to discover practical properties.

Best part, it is incredibly cheap, and I can make ALOT. It will give me VERY GOOD possibilites in the corpse area, considering the translucency and inherent organicness of the material.

Oh yes, there will be shrieks,
There will be fear,
There will several grossed-out teen agers in the A-day forensic class...

Now I just need to find out where I can purchase... maybe 500 grams of gelatin powder...this might not be so easy.

And someone willing to be life-casted to give us a useful head, arms, and feet.

And a good wig for the dummy.

Anti-pope!

2006-05-18T20:46:51Z

YOU MUST WATCH THIS!
http://www.jetlagtravel.com/molvania/eurovision.html

While your at it, watch Supersonik as well.

http://www.jetlagtravel.com/molvania/eurovision_2004.html

...I AM THE ANTI-POPE!

lord_zorinthrox @ 2006-05-13T22:11:00

2006-05-14T02:34:15Z

So, have discovered that men and women truly are nearly the same. Having a conversation in the library with Sarah, Katie S., and Maggie, and somehow Katie got 80's hair metal into her head, which rapidly degenerated into 80s hair, leading to an 80s penis, all crimped and crooked (like 80s hair). Don't ask me, it was bizarre, but funny as hell. There was also an interesting talk about the fact that girls masturbate.

Anyway, when talking with a load of guys later, bringing the weird penis thing up made the room go silent. However, but a half hour later, we were laughing about "octopus of breasts" jokes from an episode of The Coupling. Fascinating.

Perhaps it is who you talk to, but I find it interesting that, generally, guys seem to advoid the subject of their own bodies, whereas girls are a little more forgiving (or downright open, but that is who you talk to).

Perhaps it is akin to Lisa B.'s explanation for homophobia: since society lessens women, men fear anything that may encroach upon their masculinity, which focuses on not being feminine, as it will make less of them. Thus, the thought of being gay (which is equated to the act of having sex with a man) is revolting, as it would make them "the woman."

Case in point: next time you see a guy hold a bag or purse for a girl, notice that, without even thinking of it, he will hold the article with a fully extended arm and away from his person, as if to say, "this ISN'T mine, dudes." I have mentioned this, and guys admit that they do it unconsciously (even well "balanced" guys like Dylan).

In any case, masculine culture still has some growing up to do; it needs the same revolution that feminie culture has already gone through. Let's hope the latest introduction to the latest edition of the Feminine Mystique is right; the future lies not soley in women nor in men, but in both.

Oh, bother...

2006-04-27T00:58:14Z

Well, uh, stuff and things. Just really wanted to post.

Have started designing a role playing system, and it is now based on the dice roll system of the Generic Universal Role Playing System and Hero System (that is, rolling 3d6). It works very well and is intuitive.

At a loss on what to do. The big tests that will define my future are coming up, and there doesn't seem like there is much to do. I find myself studying for the AP History exam...eight days in advance. That is something new.

Mind and body are demanding that I get a girlfriend. You know, I always hate that terminology: "get a girlfriend," I mean, am I going to a store and buying one? Honestly, something like "finding a girlfriend" would be far more appropriate. So much for colloquialisms. Whats more, I really don't have anyone on that particular list, and I would like to avoid our little circle's habit of "friend-cest." Or do I? Too many questions. The fact it seems everyone is getting play isn't helping either (damned little breederfolk). Not that I am necessarily looking for that, but something, anything.

Today's debate question: Is there such a thing as acceptable pornography? Discuss. *knows Ben will weigh in heavy on this one*

Seduction Quiz!

2006-03-28T20:22:38Z

From the site that Hilary posted her nostalgia from:

Your Seduction Style: Ideal Lover

You seduce people by tapping into their dreams and desires.

And because of this sensitivity, you can be the ideal lover for anyone you seek.

You are a shapeshifter - bringing romance, adventure, spirituality to relationships.

It all depends on who your with, and what their vision of a perfect relationship is.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

Ha-HA! Now all Mike needs is a girlfriend.

EDIT: Okay, had to include this one:

You Are 30% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well.
In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

How Evil Are You?

Chai Madness!

2006-03-25T19:58:16Z

Just finished a fresh batch of true, honest to Thor Chai! GReat stuff, ti's like crack. Recipe follws (in case any one is interested).

Chai (concentrate):
This recipe yields Chai that is nigh identical to the pre-made Oregon Chai Latte you can buy at the store. The key factor is the Nutmeg and the Honey. Extra cinnamon will give you something closer to Dunkin’ Donuts (if you like that sorta thing), and increasing the anise will yield a more licorice-like tea.

Ingredients:

6 stars of Star Anise, or about 1 Tbsp of anise seed
3-4 four-to-five inch Cinnamon Sticks (or equivalent)
6 Cardamon Pods
20 Whole Cloves (or to your liking; you’ll need a lot to taste it)
Ginger – 4-6 pieces dried, or ¼ inch slice of fresh (peeled into strips); you can use as much as you are comfortable with, ginger can be strong
½ Tsp Black Pepper Corns (about a dozen corns)
2 Bay Leaves
Nutmeg to your liking (I find a healthy dash does well; fresh isn’t out of the question either)
¼ Cup Honey

2-½ Tbsp Darjeeling Black Tea, or your favorite black tea. Green tea will not work (it will end up too bitter).

6 Cups Water

Equipment:
2 Saucepans, one able to hold about 2-½ times the volume of six cups of water
Sieve, preferably large enough to sit in the second saucepan without being held
Large jar, big enough for about six cups of liquid.
Funnel
Coffee filter (optional)

Procedure:

Take all of the spices and break them up in a mortar and pestle (save the ginger and nutmeg) one at a time. Set aside in a bowl or some vessel.
Boil the six cups of water, and add the spices. Boil for five minutes. Then set aside the mixture and let it steep (i.e., without heat) for ten minutes or so covered.
After steeping, add the black tea and bring to a boil; stir to remove spices from the bottom. After a few moments of boiling, simmer the mix for five minutes. Strain into second saucepan. On low heat, add the honey and stir.
Now, funnel the chai into the jar, and store in the fridge. I suggest spooning it into the funnel; you will spill some if you pour out of a spout-less saucepan.
At this point, the chai is perfectly ready for milk and a good sit. Letting it stew overnight does make it taste better, though. After stewing, you can filter it with the coffee filter if you wish to remove the remaining particles, but this is not necessary.

Other Issues:
What you use for dairy is really up to you. I use half canned milk, half whole milk in a 1:2 ratio of dairy to tea. You won’t need sugar, the honey covers it. Depending on how much milk and tea you use per serving, this recipe yields eight to six servings of chai.
I encourage you to try out more and different spices; the more fun you have making it, the more fun you’ll have drinking it.

Have fun!

Almost forgot to thank the Chai! website for their resources; they have more tha a dozen recipes.
http://www.odie.org/chai/index.html

Stuff, YEAH!

2006-03-21T22:20:47Z

Well, been a while since I 've actually posted. Hmmmmmm, nothing much to talk about, really...or is there?!

Well, there is this little toast I'm working on:

For lovers found and lovers lost,
For time poor spent at such great cost
For gatherings and fun,
For good drink and good rum
For stars and moons,
For planets and suns,
For good friends and good food

For bad times, good times,
and the melancholy in between,
Let our minds never be bereft of such memories as these.

"To" can of course be substituted for "for," and the line about rum isn't necessarily wholly appicable to everyone; it is just a general toast (plus rum rhymns rather well). It's got a good ring to it, too.

Can't believe we are now signing up for the last free classes we will ever take. It all has such a morbid air of finality, really. Oh well.

I guess I'm back to normal; can't remember when I wasn't, but it seems I am more myself now than I have been for a while. Its good. Maybe I wasn't getting enough sleep, didn't give myself enoug time, or simply not enough water (which happens). Have been toying with a large writting project idea. And yes, a significant part of this was written about me, more or less. Well, there's plenty of inspiration from myself in here, kinda a fractured view. Two character monologues kinda sum up the gyst:

Morning, another grim, overcast October morning in New England. The light is diffuse and gray, like God suddenly decided to pour bleach into the wash of existence and all the ink ran into gray. The piercing alarm drills into my brain: “WAKE UP! THERE IS YET SCHOOL TO GO TO,” like dull brush handles rammed under the flesh. Yes, more school, more dreary school to fill my mind with things that I will quickly forget and that my children, if I last that long, will gawk at me for not knowing.

The world is dead and dark; event he golden dinner plate of the sun cresting the near-off trees, burning the gray away to reveal the glorious bronze underneath the patina of night, seems bespoiled and sulfurous.
Why, Ryder. Why.

----------------

Morning. Ahh, I may not like going to bed late for homework, but I love the morning, even just to catch the sunrise. And what a sunrise today: yellow like dandelion dew, bright and clean; crisp. I stand on the west porch in my black kimono, the one with the little cherry blossom patterns, and breathe the clear, potable air of an October morning. Fresh, though melancholy, as now things die to be born again in five months hence.

But the inevitable chore looms in the distance: school. I don’t know what they want from me, I just don’t. Staring into my morning tea (licorice this time; its extraordinarily good in the morning), I feel the heavy bags of lead under my eyes drag my soul down. How many today? Four, perhaps. Yes, it was four. Four.

Funny: twenty will make you feel refreshed, and one two hundred and forty will make you groggy as hell.
I sit down at the desk to finally print my paper for English; five long pages of brutally extracted prose, about some book or another. It pangs me to even begin to read it; they are words forged of necessity and demand, not the words of an artist, not the masterwork of a word smith. They are cold, and bleak, full of formulas and paraphrasing that cannot even begin to describe what I think, for what I think is blasphemy. A slight glance at my green notebook; the language notebook. Dozens upon dozens of ciphers and scripts, beauty in simplicity and organized chaos. Lyrical perfection waiting to be cast.
Ever notice how salty tears are, and how well salt goes with your tea?

I haven’t touched it since September.

Admittedly, it has the Faulkner-ish style of character viewpoint things, except there are all highschool students. It is intended that these quips are for character building, to sun them up in one passage, so I can write things in a more "traditional" manner. It may go either way; hell I might not even work on this again, its just for fun.

Survey of DOOM!

2006-03-01T22:36:08Z

Hmmm, this is fun.

~`<>`~ Stuff People Who Stalk You Might Want to Know ~`<>`~

Your Middle Name: James
Named after anyone? Great grandfather, Michael Hopkins...or Cummings, can't remember.
Someone awesome who shares your birthday: H.G. Wells and Bill Murray
The exact time you were born: ???
And the city: Long Island somewhere
Historical person you wish you were (or actually are) descended from: In actuality, Thomas Paine of Common Sense, Davy Crockett of deadines at the Alamo, and the Hopkinses were on the Mayflower. I wish I had Frederick the Great or someone cool like that.
Think you were born in the wrong decade/century/millenium? I'd have to say so; I'd have loved to be in Leonardo's workshop, and the seventies wouldn't be so bad.
Celebrity you would assassinate if you could: There aren't any actors I particularly despise.
Person you know who you would assassinate if you could: Patrick, but that is a years old vendetta.
Your method of assassination: Some mechanical device that slowly injects poisons, toxins, and enphetymines, over a period of three weeks, so they feel every excruciating moment.

~`<>`~ Random Questions That Reveal Dark Secrets About Your Soul ~`<>`~

~Who was cooler, the Greeks or the Romans? Greeks. Greeks for the philosophical and mental advancements and numerous technologies; Romans for their kickassedness and culture.
~As far as pie is concerned, are you in it for the crust or the filling? Pie is not pie without the crust, nor is it pie without the filling. Givent he choice, I would probably go with crust first.
~Would you rather die in extreme heat or extreme cold? Cold.
~Toast? "To good friends, good food, and good drink."
~If you caught your "significant other" blatantly cheating on you, would you be more inclined to attack/strangle/maim them or the person they were cheating with? Hard question. The sig-other is the one I am hypothetically involved with, so I doubt I could harm them spontaneously. Probably the other. Depends on the severity of the situation.
~If you could return to one specific date/event in your life and relive everything from there, when/what would it be? Sometime last summer.
~If you could change one thing you did in your past, what would it be? Or would you rather not? Several things, but I'll go with Skippy on this one, as skrewing with the past is dangerous business.
~Under what circumstances would you kill someone? Mass murderer, murderer of close friend / sig-other, if they were the antichrist.
~Are you disturbed by bread that is more than one color? (not counting mold) No.
~You can only listen to one band for the rest of eternity. Which is it? Pink Floyd or the Beetles.
~You can only listen to one song for the rest of eternity. What is it? Ehh...no.
~What song would you strip to, and for how much money? Pour Some Sugar on Me from Death Leopard, most definently. Money? Hmmm, not sure...i'd be a good chunk of change.
~To whom do you owe the most in your life? (You don't necessarily have to answer that one, but think about it)
~About how long do you spend in the shower, generally? 25-30 minutes, then fifteen of drying, face astringents, and combing.
~For the "would you sacrifice your own life to save a thousand others" question, have you found yourself asking who the thousand people are, or if they are less important in the grand scheme of things than you are? Indeed.
~If yes, would that make you a bad person? No, only a pragmatist.
~Can you believe it's not butter? I don't believe in margerine.

~`<>`~ The Inevitable Either-Or Section ~`<>`~

<>Rape or murder: To me...hmmm, forced sex and live, or no forced sex and die. I guess death.
<>Rice or noodles: Rice (the good stuff that is sticky and a little salty)
<>2005 or 2006: 2005
<>Dr. Feelgood or Mr. Brownstone: Who?
<>'70s or '80s: '70s
<>'20s or '60s: '60s (gangsters!)
<>Trash or garbage: trash
<>Squid or octopus: squid are cooler
<>Frodo or Sam: Frodo
<>Merry or Pippin: Merry
<>Commies or Nazis: Nazis for presence, Commies for...wel if they had actually been communist, their ideology...sorta.
<>Naked or scantily clad: Scantily clad for 400 Alex
<>Bitches or hos: Hos
<>Paris Hilton or Nicky Hilton: Death to the spawn of Satan.
<>Nicky Hilton or Nikki Sixx: Sixx; as long as it isn't a Hilton
<>Hardcore or flaccidcore: hardcore
<>Greek or Latin: Latin
<>City or country: country
<>Drugs or pain: pain
<>Stairway to Heaven or Highway to Hell: Stairway all the way, man!
<>Or Love in an Elevator: Mehh, like stairway better.
<>Escalators or elevators: Escalators, and the moving walkways.
<>Or stairs: Too much work, my legs can't be bothered.

~`<>`~ Your Favorites ~`<>`~

What is your favorite:

~Racial slur: Beaner, because it's wyrd
~Awkward situation: Ben's was pretty good, but I opt for being the walk-inner as the most awkward situation to be in, especially if know them well.
~Insult: lucky bastard
~Euphemism for masturbation: "doing the one-handed jig" (though I just made that up) Alternatively, "pass the kishka," which I alos just made up from that "polka hits" album comercial a few years ago.
~Euphemism for "manhood": Not a euphemism so much, but "linga"
~Word that is found only in romance novels: Can't beat turgid
~Continent: Asia has posibilities
~Lord of the Rings character: Radaghast/Treebeard

~`<>`~ Relationships and Junk ~`<>`~

~Ever been in one? How many? Once, but it wasn't a relationship so much as a really close friendship that involved a girl and boy.
~Ever really wish you hadn't? Hell no; wish I had more, at least one real one.
~Believe you in astrology having anything to do with love/compatibility? Though their is little scientific evidence, it is rather creepy how well it works. I'm a spitting image of a Virgo, for example.
~Would you want to be in an orgy/threesome if you were with someone? By "with someone" I suppose you mean "in a relationship." If the hypothetical sig-other was truly okay with it, I don't see why not. That's is every-man's fantasy, however, so would I actually participate, probably not.
~Biggest possible age difference for a couple before it becomes disgusting: Depends; it is realy a question of perceent age difference. A 65 / 80 isn't so disturbing. A 20 / 35 is.
~Oldest person you have ever had a fancy for (movie/rock stars included): Not really into those fantasies, but if anyone, Angelina Jolie.
~Is it possible to get it right the first time? In a relationship? Yes. Does it happen often, and is it necessarily healthy? No.
~General thoughts on love? A good thing, but also capable of imeasurable pain and anger. If you find the right, it is great.
~Song that best describes your love life right now: I'm in with Boulevard, but my repetoire isn't so great, so there is probably one that fits better.
~Song you dare not listen to for fear of crying: Songs on Fallen generally get to me, but there has been no chance to develope "breakup songs."

~`<>`~ The Last Part ~`<>`~

~Do you have any idea where the quote "So it is written. So it shall be done" comes from? Nope.
~What ancient dictator/ruler/conqueror would you want to have an affair with? Hapchetsut was kickass, as was Cleopatra.
~If you could have any job in the world, what would it be? Right now, game design/software engineering/computer programing.

lord_zorinthrox @ 2006-02-17T20:23:00

2006-02-18T01:53:46Z

Mmmm, the vacation. I'm desperate for social interaction, and I will partake in all social engagements I can find.

That said, have to sadly report the death of a family friend. Husband of grandmother's friend has died, bizarrely, of a stroke (of all things). Very cool guy, wish I had really gotten to know him, but I don't feel as emotion as everyone else seems to. He'll be missed, I will certainly, but I can't feel the horrible detachment and "oh he's gone" thing that everyone seems to entertain. To quote someone (it has to have been said before), the dead aren't dead as long as the living can remember. He'll always be there, in everyone who knew him, so he isn't really gone. Words to think about.

New personal motto from English class: Worry about what you don't know, not what you do. I think that sums me up rather well, as much as eleven words can of a person.

3D stuff coming along excellently, still have a hi-res to do of both a shield generator and the Tosatum Nithiline, and tweak the energy shield models. Plus the textures, and the small fighter models. Then I can get in to the actual animation, which shouldn't take too long. Its the rendering the will take the longest: a test render of a destruction sequence took an hour to render 100 frames, and it wasn't even the full poly count that will be in excess of hundreds of thousands of polys, plus the three to four texture layers per object (including animated procedurals), four dozen objects, and four dozen or so active particle effects going on at any one time. Plus the two physics engines being used. Yeah, gonna be a while rendering. Anyway, here's a test render on the Maa'Lorn; textures not complete, and a cheesy horrible over;y specular one is int he place of the areas that aren't polished yet.

lord_zorinthrox @ 2006-02-09T16:08:00

2006-02-09T21:50:47Z

Well, the parents are gone, and I am having a blast. I get to cook every night and eat what ever the hell I want. Made high-end mac n cheese (complete with roux and everything, though could've used more cheese and more sauce period) and a really interesting experiment of a roux-based curry sauce. Needs an un-godly amount of curry to make it right, though.

Anyone noticed that all our tests for the current chapter/section/book are all coming up rather fast? That and they are all on Monday or Tuesday. Thus, going to be a fun weekend *prays incoming storm front will give us extra crucial hours*.

Been messing around with Blender, as everyone knows, and getting pretty cool results. Hopefully I'll be able to get all my homework and the demo reel done in a timely manner. Have pined down the name of both ships:

For the Tosatum ( the feudalistic Japanese inspired race) it is the Nithilinta (last "i" like the vowel in the word "been"). It is a high-speed, high-maneuverability cruiser. It has a long and thin main structure, hard to hit at distance from most angles. The entire fusion assembly is dispersed over a vertical plane rather than a horizontal one, allowing for a more compact craft with a generally smaller cross section from all angles. It is fast and agile, but is only effective in close-quarter combat, straffing the sides of enemy ships at break-neck speeds with plasma cannons, antimatter emitters, and oxygen-devouring explosive rounds. Three main drives with three smaller enigines mounted on large struts. A small but highly trained force of up to thirty fighters can be stationed on the Nithilinta.

For the Kahyr (religious bad-asses with Aztec/Mayan overtones), the Maa'orn (the ' is a click). This mammoth destroyer is typical of Kahyran battleship design: large, bulky, and utilitarian. It sports eight massive antimatter subluminal drives with multidirectional exhaust bezels and a full contingent of 72 spacecraft. Its defenses are largely anti-spacecraft, with dozens of gauss rifles stationed on all sides. The main weapon, though unwieldly, is the twin set of Gauss cannons that run the length of the ship. Each can fire a high-density depleted uranium round in a magnetic sabot shell four inches in diameter at speeds well in excess of those needed to penetrate even the toughest ship plating. Though they cannot be aimed outside the firing arc of about five degrees (magnetic deflection) without moving the entire ship, the effect on even a poorly placed round can be devastating, particularly if the enemy's fusion reactor is hit, which generally causes a decay of the magnetic containment fields of the antimatter fuel cells.

The reel is purely a technical demonstration of the 3D program. I will post screenies of the ships themselves when I complete modeling and texturing.

WTF?

2006-01-24T03:35:55Z

WHAT THE HELL IS THIS?! I just posted over in Emily's stuff (BTW, if it couldn't be great, there wouldn't be an entire faith system based around it), then read Ben's endorsement of the wonders of sex; is everyone getting laid? It's like we have months of clouds, everyone gets depressed for lack of Vitamin D, and then we have one week, one miserable week with some sunshine, and everyone is messing around.

Your all a bunch'a horn dogs, really happy, jubulistic, sex-deprived horn dogs.

Although, good to know everyone is going about things safely, as corny as - no, its corny at all, now that I think of it. We should be so lucky; I get reports from Ammerst from Jen that paint a much more premiscuous, unsafe picture than in our group (and hopefully our school).

...Why am I posting?

lord_zorinthrox @ 2006-01-16T18:17:00

2006-01-16T23:47:09Z

This summation by William Juennings Bryan during the Scopes Monkey Trial I think has something to say.

"Science is a magnificent force, but it is not a teacher of morals. It can perfect machinery, but it adds no moral restraints to protect society from the misuse of the machine. It can also build gigantic intellectual ships, but it constructs no moral rudders for the control of storm tossed human vessel. It not only fails to supply the spiritual element needed but some of its unproven hypotheses rob the ship of its compass and thus endangers its cargo. In war, science has proven itself an evil genius; it has made war more terrible than it ever was before. Man used to be content to slaughter his fellowmen on a single plane--the earth's surface. Science has taught him to go down into the water and shoot up from below and to go up into the clouds and shoot down from above, thus making the battlefield three times a bloody as it was before; but science does not teach brotherly love. Science has made war so hellish that civilization was about to commit suicide; and now we are told that newly discovered instruments of destruction will make the cruelties of the late war seem trivial in comparison with the cruelties of wars that may come in the future."

This is out of context, though. The rest of the speech endorses a fundamentalist Christian agenda, as to be expected in this trial. But just this first third could have been taken from the mouth of a Science Fiction writer.

Bryan's Summation (in full)

Release of Centuries-old Water

2006-01-16T22:30:40Z

IS this emo-y? Can't tell. It's positive, so I don't think so...

The heading is the phrase from my Clay II final tablet last year. It read:

When I create
It is a release of Centuries Old Water.

I feel like that now. I can think clearly again, I can think. So long...so long since I've been able to think. Just sit and read and take it all in; just spin facts and information together again into a web. I feel smart again. There is no turmoil, no wisps of thought swirling around; it is balanced. I've drawn again, drawn with purpose, just drawn.

But I can't help feeling that I was somehow responsible for all of this. Maybe I felt inadequate, that I hadn't done things right or waited too long to do them.

In any case, I feel like myself again.

P.S. After tumbling around what Tokyo said over on Skippy's relational breakdoan entry, I want to say I hope I did not offend anyone. It is too easy to just rail against the opposite side in a breakup of one of your good friends.

lord_zorinthrox @ 2006-01-15T00:49:00

2006-01-15T06:00:03Z

Mmmm, sexy new avatar picture, a la the Tosatum. Its a half-drawing/half-digital art rendering of a Tosatum Mech-Knight. These things are nasty: twenty feet tall, fully armored, and piloted by the Tosatum's best knights (part of the warrior class; they grow up learning how to control these robotic terrors). No two are the same, as the knight must furbish and is encouraged to embellish his own armor. They are often armed with staffs fully as tall as themselves that end in crooked blades assembled molecule by molecule from carbon based alloys and composites. Some have flight capability, some missile pods, some swords, and others exotic melee weapons (the knights reject long ranged attacks; that's the infantry's job). They own on the battlefield.

And now my avatar is one.